Sometimes, I feel as if I really should keep a journal or something. Something to remind myself that when these days come on….well they do pass. I don’t know what it is, whether it’s after period depression, all my emotions catching up to me, or a combination of both.
I don’t know how to go about life, function or try to be okay on days like this. I shut down, I’m nasty and constantly think about suicide. Obviously I would never kill myself, I just think about it. How pain, emotion and all things bad in life could just end. Taking my last breath, how all the things were just going to die with me.
This is not something I like to feel, although there isn’t much that I do like to feel. I run away from emotion because it scares me. As much as I want to feel hope, love, dedication, faith, and all those other good emotions I can’t. I never let that wall down. That wall saves me from disappointment and regret, even though the feeling may not be full blown. I still watch as it happens and it get’s to me a little.
Knowing that no one reads these things is why I post them, being able to express things is key in life along with communication. I do feel like I’m able to express myself when ever I have the need to, that’s one reason I’m so straight forward. If something’s on my mind, good or bad…I say it.
I’ve lost my train of thought, so I think that’s the end. Maybe this has made things better and maybe it hasn’t , I’m not sure if I’ll ever really know.
(Source: thebestlolz, via paper-hearted-romantic)
i wonder what was going through her head at that momentAustralian model caught distracted during a photo shoot when the first plane hit tower 1. What an epic photo.
It’s so weird to think that normal things were happening on 9/11. People were walking their dogs, riding their bikes, models were doing photoshoots… and the planes hit.
One of my favorite pictures on Tumblr.
holy shit
love
I always reblog this picture when I see it on my dash because, although a simple picture, I believe it to be one of the most beautiful things.
Just that people could hold so many memories on this old, worn out mattress which is not of beauty but could have had something as beautiful as falling in love happen on it.
(via shp0ngle)
Dante Basco (Zuko) on The Last Airbender movie.
I FEEL THE SAME WAY!
(Source: zukkos, via not-the-singer-that-you-wanted)
(Source: slavesdiary, via eatpussylivehappy)
Gotta love it when your cat brings a dead chipmunk in to your room for you … (Taken with instagram)
“Trinity is amazing in first time boy/girl bondage sex” featuring Mark Davis and Trinity Post (pics and clips)
(via ttnkountze)
